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I no longer felt connected to art. I didn’t have the drive or even the belief that I was meant to pursue it. I couldn’t understand why it was so hard to follow something that was supposed to be my purpose and destiny. What was I doing wrong? Why wasn’t I enjoying it like I used to? Was it just temporary, and my actual purpose something else?

I didn’t know.

 

At the time I was focusing on teaching art and learning digital marketing. I thought maybe I could become a marketer and quit art once and for all. But something within called me, again.

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When I arrived in Florence, I felt the energy of the city. It instantly pulled me in. The first place I visited was the Leonardo da Vinci Museum. I knew things would get even better when I could stand in front of one of his original works.

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Then I went to the Uffizi Gallery, and there I was, standing in front of a painting by da Vinci. I couldn’t believe it. I had dreamt of this moment for so many years. I remembered being a teenager in Nicaragua, admiring this man for his genius, and now I was standing before something he had created with his hands. I felt grateful, and all I could think was: art brought me here. I had sold a big piece, and I used that money to travel to Europe.

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As I walked through the Uffizi, surrounded by the great Renaissance masters, something moved within me. It was a feeling of awakening, of rebirth, of pure potentiality, of infinite possibility. I felt as if every master spoke directly to me  reminding me that I needed to continue, that I couldn’t let my mission die because of obstacles, confusion, or limiting beliefs. It was tough love. It didn’t feel “cute” at all :P

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That’s how it became Renacimiento: blending the Renaissance period with my own rebirth.

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When I left that trip, I had no doubt that art was my path.

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When I came back, I called a couple of friends to do a shoot in the middle of fall when it was cold. It was fun, and I was very grateful to have them. I wanted to paint people I know and people I love.
I wanted the collection to feel alive, personal and true.

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When I finished the photoshoot I began doing the digital collages and create everything for me to paint them. I knew I needed to paint. But it was fall, a season of letting go, of peeling layers, of entering the darkest time of the year. For me, it is when I process my shadows. When I dive deep into the waters of my psyche and see things I had avoided before.

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These moments are usually painful and slow. My body feels exhausted, I feel emotionally drained, and all I want to do is rest. I still didn’t know what collection I would create until I went through this inner death of the season.

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I remembered how this process has always been part of my life. Even though it’s not “pretty” or Instagrammable, it’s one of the most precious times of the year because I get to be my own alchemist. I can transmute pain into gold. I can transform the weight into wisdom.

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When I first started my spiritual journey, I didn’t understand this process and I took it for granted. But now I know: this is a portal. An opportunity to transform. During this time, a door opens and you are invited to dive deep within, to choose what stays and what grows. You connect with your soul and Higher Self. You become more sensitive, more aware, and it becomes an incredible time to make art, because you are in tune with depths that normally aren’t present when life feels lighter.

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This portal of transformation is a death of the self, followed by a rebirth of the identity you truly are. What hurts is the peeling away of a layer that was never yours. Those are the conditionings imposed by society, family, or culture. Rebirth is like peeling an onion: the more you peel, the closer you get to the core.

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This core is your true essence. And to reach it, you must do the work, the releasing, the going within, the surrender. After that destruction, you are left with fertile soil to build anew. With greater wisdom and clarity of who you truly are, you can create a life you couldn’t even imagine before.

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And this is the key: how can you create something beyond imagination? By daring to visualize, by dreaming big, by painting your dream life and creating your own masterpiece.

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When you emerge on the other side, you are reborn. Not as someone “new,” but as someone transmuted, like the alchemist who transforms lead into gold, you become your own alchemist, transforming pain into treasure.

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Finally, this treasure becomes your way of living. It becomes your compass, guiding every step you take toward fulfilling your purpose and your soul’s destiny.

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